THE NEW BEGINNINGs PRELUDE

No...this aint the 2nd coming...this the remainder of the first chapter of the first days of the endings third week, depending on some life changes re-arrange in this speech...speak for those who wanna prosper...the weak will follow and keep watching...the meek will adopt the lingo...keep a couple of doctrines closed brief like a window sealed...this i proper instill in to you...the new improved...C.Guverra era 2. ...so stay still...stay in tune...stay focus and Coooollllllllll!

2008

I dont know whats going on...

dont know whats goin on
cant tell u anymore
im tired of feeling like this
no im suicidal
plz stop asking me
i dont wanna hurt any1
plz stop asking me
i just feel like i cant feel
so if i tell u i feel weird
than maybe thats normally correct
but my feelings arnt

BDF all day but right now i gotta take break

LEFT FIELD ANYONE

I awoke to a nightmare in broad daylight in a place where time didnt exist we breathe oxygen with no air...so how is this possible...the sun was destroyed and replace with contaminated glows of violet rays. Is this really a dream because i cant fall a sleep to reality, my senses more alert than ever before...is this life? Yes it was and where i stood was further than any form of life possible...further than any form of light possible...further than any atom of matter could be squeezed in...was i contained in my own mind? No because i could out think my own mental captivity and this was far beyond anything Ive ever experienced or even expected. This is what freedom must feel like,because never once was i limited to any barrier of laws...but the scary thing was with no routine and order...yet anarchy takes more than one person... i was pointless....pointless like water with no absorption...pointless like a messiah with nothing to save...pointless like eyes for the blind....pointless like the tip of writing utensils edge... It was the feeling of being conscious in an unconscious moment...finally sitting on the plateau of no bottoms below and heavens no higher than arms reach.... Did i conquer anything....coincidences maybe? What was next i still wast prepared for and since time didnt matter i had all the time in the galactic to figure out the faith of me then is the same of me now no matter my surroundings...Death inevitable yet life was promised...and between these both only thing i could find was insanity...Yes insanity...but this was normal because i knew of nothing out of the norm... finally i have become a genius to standards that nothing could measure so did this mean i was dumb as well since there is no level greater than the other... uncertainty isn't even the word for this case of who knows what where and when...

I too am one of the greatest writers of the 21st and 22nd Century

Every One is A Rapper

Ive been feeling this way for a while but i just need to throw it out there now...every one feels the need to make rap a way out or that they think they can rap....Hip Hop isn't Dead...the listeners are and the people that made it are...or at least retired...the game is too far gone to clean up so i leave this in its memory....


This goes out to b boys and girls who spit bars no holds bard spit barbs of fire and split cigars..replace the organs with organic haze and take charge...organizing the remains of this music bits thats chard...Sorry Miss Hip Hop for the things we say...beings for being that way...seems that it will never change because we abused you and bruised your face...now they public accuses you for being a human disgrace...fall of the human race...all behind what we say...who knew people like A BAY BAY...dedicated songs to corrupted D.J.s or Cranks Toy Soldiers to crash and burn...rappers need a 101 class to actually learn..actually earn opportunities on the mic time when they rap these wack lines do they be in they right mind...when they take time to write these lame lines or are cocaine high sniffing white lines...mike tyson rappers...all biting and punch lines...no substance or just substance abuse talk bout they got caught and did time...is it me just pointing the blame...or have i been annotated the antidote to internally dying game...cuz i hear her voice crying in pain...still mourning the Death of the greatest and these wannabes who claim...they gonna be...the next prolific musician sounding the same...no ideas is original...they have no ideas and maybe im hypocritical but i still have topics to to touch like molestation trials...they exploited the sacred cow...and now i vow for revenge...not a catholic but its time to repent...resenting all no sense shit like God resents sin...can be look upon...and bootlegging so high... c.d.s come with coupons...its too much dressing as is then adding croûtons? Just sleep miss hip hop and dream some...till i prove all these impostor im not a copy the carbon copy machine....and these corporate exec teams wrong...

TWIN TOWERS OF THOUGHTS (update)

Like the Fire Needs Air...I wont Burn unless u see this

Look im trying turn dreams into reality quick....running a rally to long...now i pace myself...remember the panic scares...had me hardly breathing and it...seem hopeless...focus now im back for more than just a yes or no...im Obi-won-ka-nobe...the one...hunted by poachers...supposed fell off...cliff hanging...shift changing now im back to getting me...those thought i was wrapped finna see...im wrapped but only wrapped in a rapture and rap lyrics depicting me....they cant understand my beautiful mind....no two of kind...just one of C...and wonderfully be asking bout my well beings...tell em quick doing better than u...mufucka...and i hate being profane...and i try to re frame from that language i use but being polite always bites me back...so my aggression i use will now lite fuses and break wind...preying...i keep praying...hater hate amen...so yeah im back on that ignorant ish...for those who stayed round like to thank ya and for those who hold me down im back for power....ground zero resurrected i am the towers....

CHANCE (SOUL BURN)

Looking for love in all the wrong times...song was made 2 cry her name is Br*****y...guess I can't say goodbye...(why) I love her too much and she can't reason why... I think we should give...me and she a try...and see lately baby be like she need her time...I need my mind... I lose it over her sometimes...cuz i luv her...and paper cuts are sweet as her eyes...a blink splits my hands with every twinkling sigh...and she wants me to prove my words are real...but i need trust...and whats the point if she moves again...then I'm stuck...and she like fuck dude foreal...I'm doomed and still people be like haahhhaaa u was stupid foreal...Like i'm chasing her...slipped on a banana peel... and my hearts racing saying she's the one i dig...cant replace her...even though pimping will...but i cant pimp luv...whoring feelings aint what i feel...my beautiful mind was design to prove what's real...and i guess pain and lies pruned her a lil...cuz she thinks my aspects r just amusement cartoons to kill..time space to live...but its my being growing up round the rich...drug dealers..and successful business...as a kid (guess that what affects my thinking) but that's what separates the poor from the rich...the poor have negative hopes with positive lives to live...while the rich have negative bad thoughts...and positive credit..possibly executives...but either way its where im headed...and i all i wanted was to bring her to the top...yeah i hustled but i never wanted to bring her to the block...rather cuddle...cozy living on a yacht...but to her thats all fancy fantasy talk...me thats a couple of years from off...ambition is half...but my net worth is a lot (880k and climbing) I wish i could show her but if she just focus on her than i ought to get money and live alone...life of living the young Sean Combs or maybe thats just a misconception of my thinking...maybe she just scared of me deceiving her than leaving...my diva well prepared 2 get on one knee..but than again i don't need some one with cold feet...roses are sweet...tulips are bright...daffodils are sexy...snap dragons bite...a bouquet of these is what i need at night...with curves,lips,teeth,and and tease of spice...but where can i find such things...im stuck to you...but i wonder why such seems...i wrote my soul to 2 u possibly every song to sing...but what more my nose is as open as could possibly be...and even if you were wrong...i would always blame me...my friends are to the side...but i guess im only playing me ...being in love with my better half in the mirror making me lonely only she made me smile...and have me on edge for those weeks...so weak...and she rather tattoo my taboo thoughts...thats cool...but just rather u accept my heart...but actual-ly...maybe this how u wanted...sick to my stomach( biggie adlib'n) and another one....lost a good woman? or maybe I'm trippen...I wanna wait till heaven comes but then its over in an instant...my dreams are what i live cuz i choose to...u being my chick cuz i choose too...and life is short...be apart of it...and yea we would last forever try not being stubborn...some times people take things the wrong way...to bad its no chorus...fuck it let the song play...though me and her better than that...and i still do



If words don't mean nothing...planning is overrated.....spontaneous and being random is crazy...then how...or maybe she doest think its me? guess thats it...just isn't me...either way ill drive 85...till my future kids realize there dad was left but still right...

Future self when you read this either..you will laugh or cry...till then just remember CHANCE I TRIED!!!!

A beautiful mind misunderstood...

NOW IF I GIVE U ALL OF ME>>>> >TELL ME WHAT YOU GONE GIVE ME BACK!!

Maybe big bro was right...hoes,bitches,women, however referred...excuse this ladies its just my feeling preferred...i love em to much a curse i cant grasp...the gift was y'all...but the thrill eventually past...and i essentially laugh at flash backs of me and em all...from the girl i met in 8th grade...to last semester of fall...its better I don't call because im breaking all hearts...i let my ex go...revenge sex's gets her impregnated and then she had the nerve to act like we more than friends...Sad part is i treated her like the rest of my women...im not speaking pimping...just past relationships that ended...Now her baby daddy hates me...never be a happy home...she wanna come stay with me...but i barely be at home...plus im not ready to father a shorty i barely know...sorry mommy im no stable...but i got to let you go.....

NOW IF I GIVE U ALL OF ME>>>>>TELL ME WHAT YOU GONE GIVE ME BACK!!

This one girl from high school...suppose to be a one night stand...funny how u made it that far of romance...still gave you respect when you was down on ya worst day...gave u ya only presents for birthdays...Remember how i use to go shop NY...call u like what u want ma...anything i would buy...cause you help my hustle i could never forget you for that...but you was known for trouble...thats why i had to leave you like that...funny thing is you came back into my life for a brief time...let u stay couple weeks...then u moved on with your life...guess my music was to much of a stride...but its maybe it just wast the best time....

NOW IF I GIVE U ALL OF ME>>>> >TELL ME WHAT YOU GONE GIVE ME BACK!!

My Angel, remember how you use to come and visit...Me u and Michigan...all nite...till ya friends use make us quit it...When I left Harbor...seems like your life was horror....Couldnt stop fighting chicks over other niggas in sorrow...i pop up...fronting like no other man matter...cutting off ya phone....ignoring all the chatter...heard you was whoring for cash up on the ave...selling ya ass...and run off...cutting class...sorry to hear...wish things was different...you blamed me because i left and ya grandma still wishing...we was back together but yet its unknown to be written...but in time ill come back and pay you visit...just leave ya pimp alone and get ya degree or skill...pray and just chill...God will handle your bills....

NOW IF I GIVE U ALL OF ME>>>> >TELL ME WHAT YOU GONE GIVE ME BACK!!

You oh my god it was just something about you...the feelings about you...the innocents about you...but the evil was deep in ya nostril...and i was ya apostle...thought it was dead...luv was just playing possum...but her true feelings started to blossom...i walk away from you many times in my heart...but i stayed cause your stare left me in awe... you had no heart...living in wizard of oz....I tried and start a new chapter with you...but i guess you was the prequel of this book boo...still i miss you...sad part is... you confuse and i couldnt wait cause thats how it is...and im pretty sure we will never really speak again...never really be again...damn i wish it was just you and me again but....

NOW IF I GIVE U ALL OF ME>>>> >TELL ME WHAT YOU GONE GIVE ME BACK!!


Now this past year so many came and went but it was a couple i really feel so im not gonna say anything just it is what is...one special one for real...but if not her...Holla @ ROXY RENOLDS WOooooooooo

NOW IF I GIVE U ALL OF ME>>>> >TELL ME WHAT YOU GONE GIVE ME BACK!!
NOW IF I GIVE U ALL OF ME>>>> >TELL ME WHAT YOU GONE GIVE ME BACK!!
NOW IF I GIVE U ALL OF ME>>>> >TELL ME WHAT YOU GONE GIVE ME BACK!!

dont get mad ladies.....

(Defeated) Not any more

This time i really lost all my marbles 4real...kinda startle how it started it didn't make no since...Now father thinks I'm loony and my mom agrees, edged of my bed folded hands and bending knees...like how can i accomplish anything...how can i lie 2 the girl of my dreams...world is crashing down...My job cant be redeemed...studio session cut short...and no mic can speak...the damage I've acquired mentally....i feel self challenged...left handed in world of rights and wrongs...ain't no place for my type belong...i try and fight when they say that im gone...im defeated...but its hard...cuz my heart freezes

I cant finish this because its negative 2 feel this way...

Luv Love Lov LVe LV ELLOO-VEEE

This thing we called love the four letter word...more like fuck...shit...bitch...its obserd...love is a curse word...so profane with emotions...obtained by a person....who is insane and doesn't know it...love makes people do what they never think of...love its like being drunk off of one drink or...love more like not n*sync or under a sink with screws missing...love its like this things goes with out mention...so if u say i love u...whats your true meaning...is it for the warm tingling or just to say its no strings attach to a being...i cant sit back and relax because my feelings aren't in tact...love...we more than friends...and now that you know that....than love i want you for the rest of my life...dont think twice...

SO DAMN GONE!!!

The dirt under my nails represents the struggle that i been through...bags under my eyes meaning no sleep for what I'm in too....nothing 2 loose....the worlds to gain...single handed pimping the mic like its my girlfriend i claim...matter fact i choose the mic if it came to it...its my only love cause all emotions are dead or just no influence...that orange rose i grip so tight...like Lex Luther over kryptonite i disperse @ all super man wanna be's im the best all artist envy me....im so gone...my nephews done grew up...had a few lil ones...and im probably past my mindstate in this music...but now i consume this game...like raw meat...at my own risk...with no jaw bone...and no teeth...i walk the hellz with no feet...i rang heavens bellz with no wings...I am the best that ever did it...the good die young...but the great never can quit it...and im immune 2 reality because...of what ima living im defying rap @ even mankind's expectations....cuz i d.r.e.a.m....want it all like a bargain deal...shit started 2 fall down the hill...but naw i can't still i rise like a catapult...or evolve like a caterpillar into that butterfly that broken his wings tryna get deal...that lonely nigga...soul so cold...i go till i cant not fold...i know no holds...i know no soul...i know no show...if i was the sun i know no glow...but since i am one in the universe i am the o-minious...dammit ill never let go.....this my life @ hands...no my life @ feet...10 toes to friendly skies im gliding on what i speak...im trying 2 to bring peace....but i cant climb 2 what i reach...but fuck crying ima grind my teeth....and climax life's peak...till then i wont speak...i know im gone...so far gone...this wont even be the never ending sleep....relentless infinity...rebel child of mother nature...the world may end b4 i ever finish making it...cause i know no bounds...i know stops...i know no time...so i nope...i dont hold no watch...i know im illegal...so i know no cops...im stereo walking...i know ima music box...amused and awwed...I do this pa...and I cannot quit till i have nor win or loose...i choose my draws....like underwears i walk in...in choose my wars...weapons i lock in...i loose myself...spazz out even in my coffin....they cant touch nothing i eva made...closest thing 2 god on earth...thats why im god's fav. any even thought we was in the same caliber...im calculus ask ure self are u even algebra ... are u even eligible...angus beef boy...raw and uneditted...i think u still vegetable...im what defines mental heaven...no in my mind its no heaven...because what can be better than this...blasphemy non exist...unless u say im not the shit...and from here on greet me as LORD...Levitating Over Rulers Dummies...so fly with no flaws...i am the Apocalypse....I may be wrong...but damn im gone....im so damn gone...i swear this shit got me going....got me going....i know im wrong....im so damn wrong....but im so damn raw....this shit got me going....got me goinggggggg!!!!! GOOOTTTTTTT MEEEEEE GOINNNGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I dont care who leaves me....im so damn gone.........im so damn gone....dammit yall knew yall wrong....now yall suffer!!!!!! Non believers of CHANCISM will die slow and painful


This Reign Will Neva Stop...Till Heaven And Hell cease or just cease to be...

Brief Line Up

Its like im stuck between left or right or a notion of a nollie or an ollie,not a skateboard but i feel pressed down 2 surface,and depressed,with a couple kickflips inside...but its the kid inside keep me going,cuz ite easy for my grind 2 get derailed...but im no tony hawker...or rob dyrdek, just a kid with a junction of choice...appearing @ my neck...got me out of breath...how they windsor tie it 2 my beard....trying new ideas of trying 2 make it outta hear...

My First D.U.I. (decision using instincts)

Drunk drivin' down memory lane...with Hennessey cups, Philly dutches, feeling F***ed up mixed in with resentment and pain...my brain twitches off the thoughts brainstorming and rain...karma's the author of strange,awkward, derogatory words filling my feelings...4eva, falling down,cuz when it all boils down...its like oiling my crown...try 2 sheen away the dandruffs,but they stand tough and gather around...what i'm saying is as the days go on it gets bigger...anticipating pain like Advil babysitting get it? maybe my minds 2 complex,but the contents are gems you should share,or maybe you should wear don't waste your time staring cuz then u preparing to lose more than what was lost in the this first thought...cant use your brains so its all instincts and a pinch of heart!

Another 365 till the Next 1 ( Chancey's B-Day)

And so it goes.

I mouth your words when your tongues are too paralyzed.
I finish up the peanut butter jelly you get on your ?Router? but never eat.


I still pee in bottles
I play at your graduation parties
I have fallen comrades, we just rebuild the team.

My friends are rich and I love it.
'Cause it makes me look wealthy too.

Shit, I still got a sidekick 1 with a crack in the fucking screen man.

I was your favorite "I'm the first person to know about this guy" album.


I dance to Easy Lover by Phil Collins in a drunken stupor
until MA and GARY tell me to go the fuck home and kick me out.

I make mistakes
I love we hate
I'm not angry anymore though


Still miss you
still love you
Like a slug hates salt
and I'm still Chancey













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ITS A NEW DAY

Whats the purpose of being mad over conditions of last nite.....certain situations over stand....and its sad people try to fight...what they cant see...antsy...aint the way to be, Emotions from yesterday let em escape to the way of capital F'it sea, no effort,let it be, See its a new day,being that we cant change past moments, worrying bout that in present presents future bad omens, strange to know, so my guardian angel halo's my fitted cap, where eva i go....

So bright the orange,red,yellow sun....or a function of fireballs, wuteva fits ya tounge, hear the birds chirp above, grass sprouts with love, getting my ass out the tub, the new days begun...with beautiful ultra-violet rays and um blue skies playing over my future greys, gracefully i grab guc, no marc jacob shades and kite away, so high like blast off, my minds a canvas being painted by BOB ROSS, or a seed deeply rooted in apple sauce...and the cost of paying mind 2 reading this prolly aint as much 2 trying 2 defeat being defeated kids....

Live Fast....Die Later

Born in the 80's....life's crazy
The money is evil but dammit it persuades me
They say when you live fast you die young
I say if you live fast...you can die later
Its a rat race for paper
Some succumb to the greed but others derive from haters
I realize the hatred
Not from people from the nature
Analyze the facts...
Fast velocity doesnt last
@ high rates I past my ages paste
The Face of a Beatiful corpse will last
Sad...
But i choose to LIVE FAST and DIE LATER

Soul of a Flower

You ever seen an orange tulip in a midst full of roses....notice no thorns....imposes no harm...but yet so alone... it illuminates through the setting of the sun... its silhouette figure dances under the endless summer skies... till one day it swayed in to a friendless butter fly....oh my!!! By (Chance) of coincidence...or was this thing heaven sent...but ever since it began 2 appear more angelic...and the butterfly was caught up in its glowing ambiance...startled by the sight...wanting nothing more than pure romance...until the winds warned of it being so delicate... still blinded by a storm of love it tried to make its warm presence...but was strongly resented by the seasons changing so relevant....and it still floats around this moment....endless hoping...passing up the orange roses....(B) ecause only one orange tulip that it's wanting....

Can't tell you how the poem ends because I am that butterfly with broken wings....figure out who the flower is

chance guevara copyright

Random Thoughts of a Drunk Poet

Wus up World....

"Left or Right-eous"

I kinda lost my voice for second....reflecting on past thoughts caught my heart regressing...tryna regain sanity....i started questioning my well being,but only i can answer me if a statement is in need of with an exclamation !!! See, because i feel sometimes we all blind...doesnt mean your eyes are open because your able 2 walk a straight line, Half time your pupils hallucinate the actual view...wrong righteous moves,but sadly u think is cool//

"HER"

This bitch i know...i hate how she leaves me, always gets the best of me...and its no real way of cheating...she doesn't need my money,claims her valuables are greater...my belated grandfather worn me of these troubles later....always with me,never wants to sleep...makes me half crazy...says i lose out when i eat, i lose out when i pee, i lose out when creep, we were arrange in a marriage the moment i could breathe, worst than any omen could bring, even as an old man she's still age free...roaming up and down the streets....over hills and valleys...made the words new and old come to be...how come she hasnt died yet...or will she ever resign...because the bitch i speak about...name is t_ _ e (Fill in the blanks) and don't waste her's or yours

So is patients really a virtue when u lose out on mins. of your life you cant get back??



Cant understand why you resent feelings...living is living...but you have 2 have pain 2 have healing...in order for peace sometimes you need killing...but its only perspectives of my own dealings

Pz & 1

Chance Guevara

My Random thoughts

Caught up in a world of contorted views distorted by the news i leave my alarm clock on snooze for another 20 mins, Until my arm starts throbbing from the numbing of life's long pressure...pull the plug from off the dresser and before my feet press up against cold tile, I...start feeling depressor grabbing my shower towel like: "I don't wanna live no more sometimes i hear death knocking at my front door, im living everday like a hustle another drug to juggle,another day,another hustle...but for what tho...cuz my life is Topsy turvy...and as the water hits my faces...i feel like just jumpin out my skin and watch my flesh drain away...cant hurt me...because this mental pain is much more inflicting ...guess thats why flirting with death is so tempting...guess thats why for fiends cocaine is so addicting...the rush and the high...like touching the sky,Piloting off my plight of corrupted thoughts trying to plot opposite of demise...often times i wonder will i see mornings glory in my eyes...or just another News Paper story of a Tragic Suicide

Middle Finger Hip-Hop is Dead,What Happen to T.V.

Im not a television head but t.v. shows slowly but surely are dying. All the good sitcoms have been replaced with reality t.v. . And nothing is wrong with reality shows but when every thing on t.v. becomes a reality t.v. show its like whats the point. Why would I want to come home from a long hard day of work and watch some one elses is problem? I could never figure this out,but the funny thing is reality tv is at an all time high. But if thats the case forget t.v. period... just spy in on people and watch them in real life if thats what entertains you. You dont even have to worry about commercials, Hell its free!! But lately thats all I see now...I never was a "Friends" fan or "Cosby" person but those were good shows. What Happen? I find myself watching more music videos now than ever...not that i dont like some of them but it seems like thats the only thing with some type of skit to it. Flavor of Love came out and before the re-runs drop it got a million spin off shows...People stop the madness...its kinda like gossip to me,every one's life is too boring so they talk about others to stay entertain. Not cool!!!

And my cartoon shows...what happen to Nickelodeon and Cartoon Network...Not every Disney show was gay...some were dope to me. I tried to sit down and watch a show with my nephew and I was amaze @ how water down the quality of the cartoons were. What happen to Doug, Ahh Real Monsters, old school Sonic the Hedgehog,Double Dragon, Dark wing Duck, Angry Beavers, G-Force, G.I. Joe. the old TMNT. I'm not tryna re-live my child hood here, but the thing is kids are being robbed out of the shows with meaning to them or with some type of message. I understand if thats all you knew it never made a difference to you but i think it sucks they have that to deal with.

But Before long T.V. will be dead and the next form of household entertainment will be like good old roman days @ the Flavian Ampitheatre (coliseum)

My Formal Introduction

Was good my fellow earthlings..
Welcome to the Official Blacklight District Blog

Its 9:17 pm central time zone on a gloomy August 1st and i feel people have been waiting long enough for me to finally introduce the new regime. I go by the name of Chance(y) Guevara or to some just Chance and Blacklight District is the family. I know their are some out there wondering wtf is Blacklight District and who is Chance well, stay tune and enjoy the Gallery of my life and my Fam. Because this is Art in its rawest form possible...with no paint nor media...just a Beautiful Mind!!

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